that thing where you have a friend and you spend an awesome night with them and have an actual conversation, where there are so few on offer in this bubble that aren't fueled by alcohol or otherwise.
you get to talk about art, and life outside of whistler, and black eyes.
and you realize something that you already knew, that this person is someone really special
and you wish that maybe it could happen again and you could call it a date
but nobody dates in this town, and this is not a romantic comedy
and if something was going to happen, it would have happened already.
that thing. that headfuck of a thing.
so instead you make a cup of tea.
it's not the same thing. just sayin'.